'Despicable, but ready to go and suffer! You are going, aren't you?'
'I am. Now. Yes, it was to avoid such disgrace that I wanted to drown myself, Dunya, but then, when I was already standing over the water, I thought: "If I've always considered myself strong, even disgrace should hold no fear for me now,"' he said, running ahead. 'Is that pride, Dunya?'